Well here I am at week 47. Let me start out saying I have been busy otherwise I would have been posting more regularly….sorry everyone!! Now on to the post….
I am not anywhere close to my goal but I am learning a lot about my health. In the last 47 weeks and even before that when I first started, I started to do this because I was having the beginnings of major issues…anywhere from asthma all the way to high cholesterol. I was not in good shape and could not go and do things with my kids that I wanted to. I mean I was not even 40 years old and I felt like I was falling apart. I weighed almost 190 pounds and every joint felt it. I was at the heaviest I had ever been in my life. So I started on this journey with the decision not so much to lose weight as to get healthy again.
And it seems that I have.
I have not lost as much weight as I would like to and in the process I have gained some back and lost it again. In total I have lost 13 pounds since I started. I know that does not seem like a lot but considering I really did not go into this to lose weight but to get healthy, to me, it is a lot. It’s a lot because I have kept it off. I did not gain it back after losing it. It shows if you change your diet you will not only lose weight but will regain your health. Yes I know I should not tout any huge successes because commercial weight loss programs will “guarantee you that you will lose 50 pounds in 6 months or your money back (insert sarcasm)” but to me this is a huge success. Not in terms of weight loss but in terms of me taking my body, my health, and my life back.
I am going to continue doing just as I have and will continue to update my progress. I will change myself the better and teach my children to live better and healthier. I don’t want to leave them sooner then I have to and I want them to have a long, healthy, enjoyable life. The more I learn the more they learn. Maybe by changing my path, I have change theirs for the better.
Success is not the absence of failure; it’s the persistence through failure.
To be honest I really have not got anywhere near where I wanted to be when I started this. I am still a lot heavier then what I want to be. I still go back to my comfort zone when I let my guard down. It’s just so easy to do it especially when you are feeling down, tired, or (let’s be honest) lazy. I am not bashing myself….I am just being truthful. I am doing a lot better I think then when I started all of this way back when. I see the difference in the way I feel and the way my family feels but it doesn’t want to translate for me. That’s ok though. When I started this, I wanted to lose weight which I have but most importantly I wanted to get healthy. I have done this. It is still a work in progress, but I know things are changing. I no longer have severe breathing issues. I no longer have to stop to rest when doing high intensity exercises. And most of all I feel amazing!! I will continue on this path I am on to get where I want to be. It’s just going to take time. It did not happen overnight and this is not going to fix itself overnight either.
I bet you all thought I was going to never post anything again….that I had given up. Ha!! Gotcha!! No I haven’t given up. I have just been so busy the last few week and I let everything sort of slide. The only thing I did not let slide was my exercising. But I guess once you get in a habit of getting up every morning it becomes easier. Do I say I enjoy getting up before everyone else and exercising and then go into the rest of my day? sometimes I do…sometimes I don’t. I think it really depends on how I feel when I go to bed the night before.
Now onto the interesting stuff…the last couple of weeks I have not been eating as good as I should. So it’s kind of interesting I have not gained all that much back. I know you are probably saying well you did though…and you’d be right. But it really proves that if you continue to exercise…you can keep your weight under some control. Of course I can honestly tell you I did not go whole hog and pig out on everything I saw. I just ate more of what I had planned for on our menu. Instead of eating example a 1/2 a cup of rice I ate more along the lines of 1 1/2 cups of rice or instead of getting up from the table when I finished I sat and just had “a little more”. I am learning these things as I am improving my health and well being. I know you are thinking…well duh I knew that…but the thing is I don’t think any of us really know until we are there trying to manage what we are doing. Then we actually find out how far off we really are. I think by doing this, even though I am not there yet, I am not only learning how to eat but I am learning also about how much I have hurt myself over the years by what I ate as well as the lack of exercise. It really can be an eye opener at times.
Well here I am at week 40….I’m not going to complain because I am back on track. Hopefully I will stay this time. It is hard when so many things happen at once and unfortunately you end up putting yourself on the back burner. You try to keep yourself up front but it happens. As I said I am not complaining because it is not productive and it just makes matters harder. Anyway…. I do have some positive news…I lost another pound so I know I am getting back on track. Next week hopefully will continue on the same path.
Sorry guys…bet you thought I forgot didn’t you? I didn’t but this is the first chance I got this week. It’s been another hectic week but not as bad as the last few. I did better this week. I got back on track with my eating and watching what I eat. And for a reward I lost 2 pounds! I guess that is a good thing 🙂 It’s just that it seems that I am stuck but it could be me just being irritated with myself. I am not going to let it get to me because I have too many other things that I have to do for this to add to it. So here is to next week hopefully I will make more progress.
Sorry about the delay…it’s been a rough few weeks. I could get into that all here but it’s not the place. I might do it later in another post. Anyway….my nerves have been shot for the last couple of weeks and I fell back into old habits. I know I have no excuse and I know I should be doing better. I just slipped. I am human you know But unfortunately not much can be done and I am not going to bemoan about it. I did gain some weight back. I am not happy about but I am stopping it in it’s tracks. Because I do not want to go back to what I was previously. Hopefully next week I have better news for you.
Sorry abut the delay…my week has not been all that great as far as my weight goes. I can make every excuse in the book because we did have a rough week and a lot of things went wrong but in the end it still is not an excuse. I know did not stick to what I should do as far as my eating plan goes and I know I paid for this week with gaining weight back. But you know what I will get back on track.
At this point, like most moms and dads, my life was all about my kids and my spouse. Just keeping it all together was an exercise in and of itself. I’m not complaining about my past. I am just reflecting. I look back and I see how much pain and stress I put myself through when not only could I have made things easier on myself but also on my husband. But hey past is past and that is not what this post is about 🙂
I knew I had to get back to exercising but I’ll be honest it was so hard because I always found an excuse. I did exercise but as many times before it was not complete. I did start a strict regiment of exercise and at that point, I weighed 172 pounds, I lost 15 pounds. I was so happy but felt I was leaving something out. I was happy to have lost that weight but it wasn’t until I started looking for info regarding my health that I stumbled upon another yoga book (noticing a theme here…I love books). This book has so much info in it. and to be honest I learned a lot both about my health and physical being in it. It’s called: The Woman’s Book of Yoga & Health. I’m not trying to promote anything here just giving info if anyone wants to look at anything I have done. I started doing the exercises in it but could not continue. I always seemed to find a reason not to get up and do it. By this point I was 30 or 31 and I just completely stopped. I didn’t exercise or if I did it was half hearted. It did not benefit me because my heart and mind was not in it. I paid the price. For the next 7 years I gained weight and was just so busy (or so I thought) that I didn’t have the time.
Another week has past and my monthly goal is here once again….hate to disappoint myself but the weight has not changed. As much as I’d like to see that number go down I am not going to beat myself up about it. The reason is I know my body is changing. I see it in my clothes when I put them on. Some fit better, some are getting too big 😀 I know I have toned my hips as well…as previously stated I lost an inch!! So on the whole, my weekly and my monthly check in may not be where I would like to be as far as pounds go but I will take any positive progress and keep moving because I know it will change. I will get there. My body and my mind know everything is changing. I just got to keep doing.
I am going to break 170 next month…12/30/2016 – 168 pounds
Ok I worked really hard this week and I got back to where I was before I had my little slip :O…I am back to 173 and glad to be there. Now I just have to get to it to keep going down. I will, I know I will!! Just got to do it!!