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emotions

laughter, happiness

things we show

when everything goes right

tears, sadness

things we hide

when everyone else thinks things are right

show me all

I want to know

when everything is wrong

when everything is right

why hide

when I am right here

give me your good

give me your bad

I can take it

I know what it is

Don’t feel lost

I’ll hold your hand

 

© MGA 2017

 

wounds

some are small
some are large
some heal
others never do
some are seen
worn on the sleeve
others never show
driving deep
like a puncture
to the soul
©MGA

Quotes 4/8/17

Hope you have an amazing weekend!!!

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it on my saps today of its joy.

Leo Buscaglia

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why?

Honestly I wonder why I try to make an attempt to rebuild burned bridges. I honestly try to make amends but when I make the attempt it seems that I am being pulled back into a ridiculous, nonsense, stressful situation. I feel I am being manipulated all over again so this person can get what they want or just for them to cause chaos in my life because I am in a better place then I used be. That they just want to pull me back down into the muck and make me what I used to be. Their jealousy is so strong. I love them so much but this last time I went to visit I could just feel the manipulation in everything they said. I find out everything we talked about was twisted and turned into something that none of it was meant to be. I should’ve learned but what can I say, maybe I’m a glutton for punishment…? I am not going to let them drag me back. I am not going to fall into those destructive habits. I am a better, stronger person. But it is so hard when it is someone you love and care about so much and they know it and use that to make your own self doubts and insecurities come out. Sigh…not much can be done.

All I know is burned once, burned twice it can be forgotten. Burned three times then I am the fool. I won’t be doing it a third time.

Fit Challenge Week 8

Here’s to week 8!!! As I said last week, I started some light weight lifting. All I can say is ouch!! I did not realize how far I had let myself go. After the first day I started doing it I was so sore I could not even think straight. At first I thought I had hurt myself, but after the 3rd day most of the soreness went away. I made sure I drank plenty of water while doing this and made sure I did not push my muscles to far over what I could do. I know I will build my muscles up to what they need to be and maybe a little more. It just takes time 🙂

As far as my weight, it’s as I expected. I knew I would not lose weight this week because of changing things a bit. Am I disappointed? Not at the moment because I know it will come off as I am doing my new exercises and I will start to look better as well.

 

Fit Challenge week 8:

Height: 5′ 7″

Age: 38

Weight : 178.6

My bust: 38 in

My waist: 32 in

My Hips: 37 in

Mindless Masses

I flip the TV on and see in awe

How it seems each time I turn

CNN is running constant reruns

On the latest shooting  or the last bomb

and wonder if we just walked away

and to never again see

CNN, FOX, or CNBC

we could probably live life

without all the violence

But of course

we can never peel away

Then I begin to wonder

are the reporters any better

Or are they just another version

I see the gleam in their eyes

When they report on the latest death

Or maybe a crocodile tear

to show they are sincere?

So here I am again

reaching for the remote and begin to wonder

am I no different?

Do I sit and watch the car wreck that is the news

or can I turn it off

and read a good book instead

 

©MGA

 

 

 

 

Quotes 2/4/2016

Here’s to Thursday…we are almost there!!

 

Laughter is the tonic, the relief, the surcease for pain.

Charlie Chaplin

Week 19 – A realization of sorts

Ok I think maybe I have come to a realization…maybe I am pushing to hard and maybe I am hurting myself more than I am helping myself? Does it mean I am going to stop exercising? No. Does it mean I am going to push myself harder? Maybe…  All I know is at this moment, I am not where I thought I’d be. This is not going as I thought it would. Sometimes I wonder if it is worth it…  When I start asking myself that, it gives me a lot of self doubt, a lot of insecurities pop up, and then I start questioning myself. That’s never a good thing because when I start questioning myself I eventually quit. I don’t want to quit this time. I want to keep doing what I am doing. I will keep doing what I am doing.

 

My age: 38

My height: 5′ 7″

My weight: 180.2 lbs

My bust: 38 in

My waist: 34 in

My Hips: 39 in

 

 

Weather Pains

I love when the seasons change. It doesn’t matter which season…I love all of them when they change from one to another. But the one thing I cannot stand is when the weather changes. I know that is part of the seasonal thing but anytime the storms move in I end up in so much pain. I thought for the longest it might be an overreaction to the storms but as I have got older, I realize it’s not. A lot of the time, I can deal with it and can go about my day. However, sometimes it can get so bad that I cannot do anything. I just wished I did not have this blessing/curse.

It was so hard this morning to get up and do my exercises. Needless to say, I did get up and do my yoga. It helped some muscles feel better but I tell you I feel like I have run a marathon. I feel like my body has been bruised inside and out.

I hate weather pains.

Migraine

creeping up out of the blue

sounds grating on every nerve

light flashing

oh geez

not again

nausea hits

can’t stop the grating feel

close the door

pain go away

can’t stand it

please go away