So yesterday was my b-day…


Well yesterday, October 24, was my 38th birthday!!! Hard to imagine that I am now 38. I mean really, I’m 38. I’m not really sure if I should feel different or not. All I know is that the person I am at 38 is a lot better than the person I was at 28. I mean wasn’t a bad person back then but I was so angry, tense and frustrated. I was so confused and I hate to say even lost. But 10 years later I am a better person, a better mom, and a better wife. I know it sounds like I am patting myself on the back and making it sound like I’m perfect, believe me I am not, but I can honestly say I have become a better person and I know I have a long way to go. It’s all about learning about yourself and making yourself better everyday. You have to take it day by day. You have to understand you are not perfect and will make mistakes. How you deal with those mistakes makes you the person you become in the end. So as of today, I am starting a whole new year for myself. I will make myself better. I will be better for my kids, my husband, and most of all for myself. Happy Birthday to me!!!

Do you know how easy…almost….


Do you know how easy it would for me to stop? To almost not do what I have set out to do for myself? Well a lot easier than anyone can think….but…

As I have said in a previous post, the only time I have really to exercise is when my husband leaves for work. He usually leaves the house around 4:30, so it’s pretty early in the morning. This morning we both got up, had our small breakfast together (nether of really eats much in the morning), and I send him off to work. We were both are so tired this morning. He didn’t have any choice really…he left to go to work. Me…after he left…I wanted so bad just to crawl back into bed and not exercise this morning. But I stopped myself. I told myself this is why you have ended up where you are. Then I look at myself, no I am not going to stay here.

Needless to say, I did my exercises even though I would have rather went back to bed.