Well as you all have noticed, I have not posted much about my lifestyle changes recently. I have not stopped what I was doing. In fact I have kept on doing what I was doing with adjustments. With those adjustments I have actually seen more success then I was before. Instead of eating a small or nothing for breakfast I have actually been eating a good breakfast. I found out it carries me though the day and I am not as hungry in the afternoon. So then I don’t end up snacking on things I shouldn’t be. I know this should have been a given but you know when someone tells you something, even if it is good for you, you have to find out for yourself. So I have….lol!! I am still doing the exercises that I was previously and it feels great. When I get done with them, it’s like my whole body is energized ready for the day. I love that feeling.
I will start posting more about this again. It is just the last few weeks have been a bit overwhelming…personal issues and stuff. It’s life…we all have those days. We just got to find a way and do the best we can. Till next time!!
Well here I am at week 47. Let me start out saying I have been busy otherwise I would have been posting more regularly….sorry everyone!! Now on to the post….
I am not anywhere close to my goal but I am learning a lot about my health. In the last 47 weeks and even before that when I first started, I started to do this because I was having the beginnings of major issues…anywhere from asthma all the way to high cholesterol. I was not in good shape and could not go and do things with my kids that I wanted to. I mean I was not even 40 years old and I felt like I was falling apart. I weighed almost 190 pounds and every joint felt it. I was at the heaviest I had ever been in my life. So I started on this journey with the decision not so much to lose weight as to get healthy again.
And it seems that I have.
I have not lost as much weight as I would like to and in the process I have gained some back and lost it again. In total I have lost 13 pounds since I started. I know that does not seem like a lot but considering I really did not go into this to lose weight but to get healthy, to me, it is a lot. It’s a lot because I have kept it off. I did not gain it back after losing it. It shows if you change your diet you will not only lose weight but will regain your health. Yes I know I should not tout any huge successes because commercial weight loss programs will “guarantee you that you will lose 50 pounds in 6 months or your money back (insert sarcasm)” but to me this is a huge success. Not in terms of weight loss but in terms of me taking my body, my health, and my life back.
I am going to continue doing just as I have and will continue to update my progress. I will change myself the better and teach my children to live better and healthier. I don’t want to leave them sooner then I have to and I want them to have a long, healthy, enjoyable life. The more I learn the more they learn. Maybe by changing my path, I have change theirs for the better.
Success is not the absence of failure; it’s the persistence through failure.
I bet you all thought I was going to never post anything again….that I had given up. Ha!! Gotcha!! No I haven’t given up. I have just been so busy the last few week and I let everything sort of slide. The only thing I did not let slide was my exercising. But I guess once you get in a habit of getting up every morning it becomes easier. Do I say I enjoy getting up before everyone else and exercising and then go into the rest of my day? sometimes I do…sometimes I don’t. I think it really depends on how I feel when I go to bed the night before.
Now onto the interesting stuff…the last couple of weeks I have not been eating as good as I should. So it’s kind of interesting I have not gained all that much back. I know you are probably saying well you did though…and you’d be right. But it really proves that if you continue to exercise…you can keep your weight under some control. Of course I can honestly tell you I did not go whole hog and pig out on everything I saw. I just ate more of what I had planned for on our menu. Instead of eating example a 1/2 a cup of rice I ate more along the lines of 1 1/2 cups of rice or instead of getting up from the table when I finished I sat and just had “a little more”. I am learning these things as I am improving my health and well being. I know you are thinking…well duh I knew that…but the thing is I don’t think any of us really know until we are there trying to manage what we are doing. Then we actually find out how far off we really are. I think by doing this, even though I am not there yet, I am not only learning how to eat but I am learning also about how much I have hurt myself over the years by what I ate as well as the lack of exercise. It really can be an eye opener at times.
Ok I know I am late but I do have a reason why….I had my yearly check up yesterday and wanted to post those numbers. My weight did not change from what I have been telling you here, which I guess is a good thing. My cholesterol numbers are doing ok I guess. Last year it was at 202, it’s at 204 this year. I know it’s still high but at least it is not what it was before I started this. My sugar was normal range 87 and my Dr. has actually lowered my meds for my thyroid. So in the grand scheme of everything, I am still in a better position then when I first started this but there is still room for improvement. My goal this year is to get my cholesterol under 195 without meds. On the whole I am getting healthier…I just have to keep at it.
I am starting to post again about my Fitness Challenge again. I know it technically it would be on week 30 by now but considering I did not do much over the holidays except eat more than I should have, I think we will pick up where I left off. So here I am. I am at week 26. I am in a better spot then I was last year at this time but I am most definitely not where I want to be. I am not going to sit here and badger myself about how I didn’t do what I was supposed to do. I am going to renew myself and get back on the path I am supposed to be on. On the good side of things, in my other post about starting again I had said that I gained 2.5 pounds back because of over eating on the holidays. Well guess what? I lost 1 pound from that!!! Ok I know one pound does not seem like all that much but it’s a lot for me. I am at 174.9 🙂 I am going to keep going because I know it will come off. It’s just a matter of time!!
By this point in my life, I think I gave up. I think I did not want to try to be better. It felt like this is what happens to everyone after they have kids and get old. You gain weight, you get lazy, and life happens. You try to make excuses, you try to say you don’t have time…but in the end you have to make time. If you don’t you end up sick, injured, or worse…die. I know this sounds morbid but in actuality it’s true. If you don’t make time for yourself, to keep yourself healthy, you will end up in the same place that I am if not worse. I think what really gave me the kick in the a** was when my doctor told me she was going to put me both on blood pressure and cholesterol meds. Even then, it took me a couple of years before I did anything worthwhile to help myself. It was a few years ago, I had some pictures taken and my son told me “you look like mimi (my mom)”. I didn’t pay any attention and just kept doing my thing. Then a couple months after that I saw myself in the mirror…I was like “oh my goodness, I am turning into my mom”. Now before anyone jumps on me and tells me how bad I am being talking about my mom, I am not. My mom even made fun of me and told me herself that I had better do something or I am going to end up like her. Her exact words were: ” I have always been fat. I have never been a small person, but you have. If you keep going the way you are you will have more health issues and physical pain. You need to do something.” I love her more than anything in this world. She is definitely one of a kind!! 🙂
With all this happening I was still in denial. It’s sort of like being an addict I guess. You keep telling yourself I can change at anytime, I can stop at anytime, I’m not _______(fill in the blank). But reality is you can’t unless you make up your mind to do it. So there I was, the heaviest I had ever been in my life, my doctor telling me I have to take meds to save myself (was a shock and turning point in itself), my mom telling me I’m going to be her…but none of it mattered. That is until my son went to the doctor and his doctor told me he has high cholesterol. When his doctor told me that, I knew I had to change. All of the bad habits I developed were being passed on to him. I could not doom my son to bad health the rest of his life. I went back to my basics. As anyone on here that has been reading my posts knows, I started eating better and exercising. I made my son get up and exercise. It made him better. It dropped his cholesterol down (it’s still elevated but it’s a work in progress) and I lost a little weight. But even then I was not complete. I still could not regain that balance. I did start slacking off…as you can go back and look at all my posts. I had to find that balance and I did. I went back to my old friend. She will always be there even when I am not as good a friend. She brings me back my center, control and balance. She never says I can’t do it…she always knows I can.
Which brings me to today. I am at peace, I have balance, and I am in control. I have started doing my yoga on a regular basis again. I have incorporated it into my regular exercise routines that I made for myself. I have learned that if I don’t make time for myself I can’t provide what my family needs as well as what I need. I know a lot of you say, yoga is just exercise. It’s just a means to an end. For me it has been a life saver both mentally and physically. It has given me my strength.