Well here I am at week 47. Let me start out saying I have been busy otherwise I would have been posting more regularly….sorry everyone!! Now on to the post….
I am not anywhere close to my goal but I am learning a lot about my health. In the last 47 weeks and even before that when I first started, I started to do this because I was having the beginnings of major issues…anywhere from asthma all the way to high cholesterol. I was not in good shape and could not go and do things with my kids that I wanted to. I mean I was not even 40 years old and I felt like I was falling apart. I weighed almost 190 pounds and every joint felt it. I was at the heaviest I had ever been in my life. So I started on this journey with the decision not so much to lose weight as to get healthy again.
And it seems that I have.
I have not lost as much weight as I would like to and in the process I have gained some back and lost it again. In total I have lost 13 pounds since I started. I know that does not seem like a lot but considering I really did not go into this to lose weight but to get healthy, to me, it is a lot. It’s a lot because I have kept it off. I did not gain it back after losing it. It shows if you change your diet you will not only lose weight but will regain your health. Yes I know I should not tout any huge successes because commercial weight loss programs will “guarantee you that you will lose 50 pounds in 6 months or your money back (insert sarcasm)” but to me this is a huge success. Not in terms of weight loss but in terms of me taking my body, my health, and my life back.
I am going to continue doing just as I have and will continue to update my progress. I will change myself the better and teach my children to live better and healthier. I don’t want to leave them sooner then I have to and I want them to have a long, healthy, enjoyable life. The more I learn the more they learn. Maybe by changing my path, I have change theirs for the better.
Success is not the absence of failure; it’s the persistence through failure.
Bust: 38 in
Have a great Easter Sunday!! Enjoy the day!!
Easter is meant to be a symbol of hope, renewal, and new life.
Janine di Giovanni
Why is it when you think you have everything in line the world throws you a curve? Well that’s what has been happening to me here recently. I don’t complain (or at least I don’t try to) because I know I am more fortunate then some but sometimes it gets to the point where you just have to sit down and ask why. I am not a devout religious person but I do believe in God. I believe for everything there is a reason. But that does not make it better. I guess what I am trying to say is I’m tired at this moment. I’m not depressed or sick or anything like that (thankfully). I just need to stop and regroup. I am just exhausted of running and running to keep up. Financially we are good, health we are good but when things start going south, no matter how good of shape you are in it wears you out. Sigh…..It always works out in the end and I am always better for the trial but it sucks to get there.
Oh wow!! Can you believe we are already at the end of March?!
If you cannot get rid of the family skeleton, you may as well make it dance.
George Bernard Shaw
At this point, like most moms and dads, my life was all about my kids and my spouse. Just keeping it all together was an exercise in and of itself. I’m not complaining about my past. I am just reflecting. I look back and I see how much pain and stress I put myself through when not only could I have made things easier on myself but also on my husband. But hey past is past and that is not what this post is about 🙂
I knew I had to get back to exercising but I’ll be honest it was so hard because I always found an excuse. I did exercise but as many times before it was not complete. I did start a strict regiment of exercise and at that point, I weighed 172 pounds, I lost 15 pounds. I was so happy but felt I was leaving something out. I was happy to have lost that weight but it wasn’t until I started looking for info regarding my health that I stumbled upon another yoga book (noticing a theme here…I love books). This book has so much info in it. and to be honest I learned a lot both about my health and physical being in it. It’s called: The Woman’s Book of Yoga & Health. I’m not trying to promote anything here just giving info if anyone wants to look at anything I have done. I started doing the exercises in it but could not continue. I always seemed to find a reason not to get up and do it. By this point I was 30 or 31 and I just completely stopped. I didn’t exercise or if I did it was half hearted. It did not benefit me because my heart and mind was not in it. I paid the price. For the next 7 years I gained weight and was just so busy (or so I thought) that I didn’t have the time.
As I was saying in my previous post, has always been part of my life. At the point I stopped doing yoga again, my priorities were skewed. I had been married almost 3 years at that point, I was about to go back to college after dropping out, I was trying to get pregnant, I discovered I had a thyroid issue (which I still take medicine for today), and as much as I love my husband…our relationship was not that great at that point. I was so out of balance with everything and it made my life a lot harder. I did try to go back to yoga during this time but it was fruitless. I could not get my mind in the place I needed to be. I could not focus on what I needed. I didn’t really know at that point in my life what I needed. It was not until after my son was born that I attempted yoga again, but I could not stay focused on it until about 3 years and my daughter’s birth was able to do it again.
At that point I was 27 and was feeling older than I was. It felt like my joints were rusted hinges. I was still somewhat flexible but I soon found out how much flexibility I had lost. I could not find any good books on yoga and I had given my book to my niece because she wanted to try it. So here I am, at home with 2 little ones (almost 2 yrs apart) and I start flipping through the channels. I never go to PBS but for some reason I did. I found a show on PBS that was yoga. I was like yes!! I found something I could start again. Well as happy as I was it didn’t last long. I did not stick with it. Not because I couldn’t (actually I think in some areas it still airs) but because again I could not focus to do anything for myself.
So as you all know I have not been posting a lot this past month. The holidays, family, and me revaluating me. I refuse to make New Year’s resolutions because…let’s be honest…no one ever keeps their New Year’s resolution. So instead of doing that I am reiterating the goal I intend to achieve: I am going to improve my eating habits, continue to do the exercising that I have been doing, and I am going to lose the weight I have left to lose.
In the last month I have discovered that when I made a decision not to allow people to control what I do or how I choose to live…I have started to live what really seems to be a better life. And as much as I hate to admit it because I hate to see people care about unhappy, I am actually happier and a lot calmer. I am glad that I no longer ( or at least most of the time) allow certain people to get under my skin. My holidays went a lot smoother then in years past. Does that mean I don’t go around my family or want to talk to them? No it just means I know how to manage myself and not worry about what everyone thinks or says.Thank goodness I made the choice I did 11 years ago.
A few things I want to accomplish this year…more goals then resolutions…just have to put my best foot forward:
- continue to improve my health with my fitness goals
- continue to pay down any debt we have (extra on house payment)
- manage myself better
- be a better parent especially now that my kids are teenagers
- be a better wife 🙂
Overall, I think this year is going to be a great one. I think it will be a little challenging in some areas but I know we will be able to do it. I know I will be doing more for myself to improve me and help my kids and husband do well for themselves. WE will accomplish what we set our minds to do. So here is to the first step…we will be great!!
I hope everyone on this day has an amazing time with your family ad friends!! Enjoy it all!!!
One of the most glorious messes in the world is the mess created in the living room on Christmas day. Don’t clean it up too quickly.
Well today is the last day to make sure you have everything you need for the big day!! I smell all the goodies cooking and all the gifts are wrapped.
Christmas, my child, is love in action. Every time we love, every time we give, it’s Christmas.