Well here I am at week 40….I’m not going to complain because I am back on track. Hopefully I will stay this time. It is hard when so many things happen at once and unfortunately you end up putting yourself on the back burner. You try to keep yourself up front but it happens. As I said I am not complaining because it is not productive and it just makes matters harder. Anyway…. I do have some positive news…I lost another pound so I know I am getting back on track. Next week hopefully will continue on the same path.
Ok I did not reach my goal for the month but I did not gain anything extra (even with all the cake and other not so healthy things) that’s all that counts at this moment. I really wanted to be at 168 by the end of the month but you know what it I ok. I am not going to stress about it. Because you know why? I know what I have to do and I know I will do it. I am going to keep my goal at 168 and I am going to do it!!
I know I have said in other posts that weight loss is not my only goal and it’s not. I have to reset myself both mentally and physically. I have to get out of that state of mind that I go to food for any and everything. I have to remember that food is not my enemy but my state of thinking is. Not my self esteem but my laziness, my looking for the easy way to do things, my saying instead of me getting up and cooking lets go out to eat or order pizza…I will conquer this.
So here I sit, Still thinking about my vacation and am so glad to be home again 🙂 Sometimes it’s really hard to get back on the horse after you’ve been on vacay but surprisingly it was not too hard this time. I think I actually have surprised myself to be honest. My body was more than ready to get back into the swing of things. I slid back into my routines with minor bumps, which says a lot about how far I have come on this journey. A year ago I could not have said this…actually to be honest, a year ago I probably would have found an excuse not to go back to my routines. But this time, it was so much easier. It was like my body was expecting me to go back. So go back I did…and am so glad I am!!
My eating habits have changed too. I have noticed in the last couple of months my body has started talking again (yes I know that sounds silly). If I reach a point where I have had enough, my body pushes back and says STOP!! If I don’t listen then I pay for it rest of the day with either severe indigestion or I get so sluggish I cannot move. I hate both feelings…UGH!!! Yes there was a time I did hear that, but over the years I forgot about it. I didn’t listen. Now I can hear it again and boy am I listening now…lol!!
My exercising has become easier. I no longer have issues breathing when doing my exercises. That’s not to say I am not challenging myself. It means that my body is adjusting itself (like the eating) and letting me know I can do more. I am going to push more starting this week. I am going to increase my gazelle time by 10 mins from 20 up to 30 mins so I can get that extra burn. I will continue my yoga twice a week to make sure my body gets it’s flexibility back as well.