Honestly I wonder why I try to make an attempt to rebuild burned bridges. I honestly try to make amends but when I make the attempt it seems that I am being pulled back into a ridiculous, nonsense, stressful situation. I feel I am being manipulated all over again so this person can get what they want or just for them to cause chaos in my life because I am in a better place then I used be. That they just want to pull me back down into the muck and make me what I used to be. Their jealousy is so strong. I love them so much but this last time I went to visit I could just feel the manipulation in everything they said. I find out everything we talked about was twisted and turned into something that none of it was meant to be. I should’ve learned but what can I say, maybe I’m a glutton for punishment…? I am not going to let them drag me back. I am not going to fall into those destructive habits. I am a better, stronger person. But it is so hard when it is someone you love and care about so much and they know it and use that to make your own self doubts and insecurities come out. Sigh…not much can be done.
All I know is burned once, burned twice it can be forgotten. Burned three times then I am the fool. I won’t be doing it a third time.
Posted on September 9, 2016, in My Opinion (and that's all it is) and tagged anger, chaos, hate, hurt, insecurities, jealousy, life, love, manipulation, nonsense, pain, self destructive, self doubt, stress. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.